First off, I want to thank everyone for their support and kinds words/condolences for me and my family.


Jada's funeral was sad, but it was also happy. It was hard to sit there and look at her casket...It made everything sink in so much more... Her sisters, Celeste (10) and Desiree (7), spoke, and if you were there it would've broken your heart...

After people said their kind words we went to go bury her, a pray was said and then we lowered her. It was quiet all but a few sniffling noises...wait for it....her aunt TT broke down; yelling and screaming. (Don't want to be racist, but it's usually a black person that does that, and she did. Although, it was sad, it was kind of exaggerated. She kept yelling out how it was "her baby," my sister was the most composed, although she did cry...) I broke down soon after...my knees buckled and I almost fell to the ground, but my older brother Michael caught me. My best-friends, Ashley and Brittney were there along with their moms, Ricky (I don't know what to call him anymore) was there too...We all just cried...we just stood there and mourned...there was nothing else to do and there was nothing to say....

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I'm a tad bit upset because I had told my mom I wanted to speak at her funeral; I had so much to say, and she didn't tell my sister that I wanted to, so I didn't. My dad said I should've just gone up and said something... I don't know...maybe I should've, even if it wasn't "scheduled"... Well...they may not know what I wanted to say, but I'm sure Jada did...That's all that really matters.

I'm rather upset about the pastor and this one guy from CJ's church. All they did was talk about "God this..." and "God that..." That's wonderful, thank you for telling me things that I already knew and that didn't comfort us in anyway. It's just like, why keep repeating that God is good? I know we know and I know He knows. They couldn't have said something about Jada? (They did, but they just said how God took her and it wasn't a mistake and she'll be happy and blah, blah, blah.) I swear, even my friend (who is very religious, btw) got tired of them. I'm sorry, but I felt empty when they spoke, they were faking their demeanor. It may seem weird, but when I get a feeling from someone, I go with it and they felt fake. I'm sure their hearts were in the right place, but they didn't know how to actually show compassion and not just spew things about church and God. It just seems like the church is their crutch, not just help, but they rely on it fully. They're the kind of people that like to tell you how bad they were until they were saved and they're so proud of it they think everyone should know and praise their accomplishments; FYI: Pride is a sin. But, whatever...it's over and done with...

Btw, Jada was buried by her older brother whom died 9 years ago. She never met him, that is, until now. :]

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Oh, some good news: We beat Michael Jackson on the front page of The Times
We nearly took up the whole page, he was down at the bottom, and we took up the whole page where the story was continued.



So, some douchebag hit the cable box outside of our apartment and I'm pretty sure the whole apratment complex is without cable.

I'm sad, I can't watch my cartoons now D:
Yes, I still watch cartoons

CABLE'S BACK!!!



The 4th was pretty fun for me. I had spent the night at ~RitzBrits's house with Ashley after the funeral and the dinner and, miraculously, we all were able to go to our friend Caitlyn's house for her B-day

'twas very fun. Me and ~RitzBrits haven't been able to actually hang out with Cait for a year or so now. Surprisingly, we didn't get home till 1am. Even though ~RitzBrits's mom was kind of upset about it, she didn't get into too much trouble.

So, since we're all bored with our lives and haven't really been to the mall in forever; they put in a Taco Bell , and Cait is actually off Tuesday, we're going Tuesday. We may or may not change plans, 'cause that's ~RitzBrits's mommy's B-day.



Hanging out with Wednesday and Thursday and Sunday.



Oh, and here's something else: MY BIRTHDAY IS THURSDAY
Ima be 17

Oh and then there's Blood+: The Last Vampire coming out on Friday (I just saw the preview, lol. I want to see it )

Also, if you haven't noticed, I have a Kiriban coming up
Doubt anyone will get/want it D:
Buuuuut, if you do, I'll give you a nice little sketchy/drawing or a doll (meaning I'll use a nice base to make you something ), whatever you prefer. What about a dry erase board drawing?

No one went for it *tear*

So, anyway, I decided to make a list of Kiribans Maybe once I have PVs that high, people might actually care. So, here be the list:

14,444
14,567
14,888
15,000
15,555
15,678
16,000
16,666
16,789
17,000
17,777
17,890
18,000
18,888
18,901
19,000
19,012
19,999





ART TRADES
1. (when she has the time )

2. King Raymond and GINGA! I mean Ginger *cough*

3. Gwinn and Makio :] I have an idea

4. Psycho Theme: Sin I have one for here too

5. Viktor





Friends: *Alphabetical



Groups: *order joined