By the by, I got my tattoo. We had been running late and I had to go to a birthday party for the kiddies, so we just did the outline. Seriously, eat before a tattoo or you'll get sick and probably barf Also, bring peppermints even if you've eaten, they'll help your body adjust to getting attacked by the tattoo gun xD




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1) Be one of the first 18 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the Promotional List.

2) For each of the 18 first people answering this journal I will put his/her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his/her gallery on the list.

3) If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing this way the list with 18 people. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone! (You don't have to, but I would enjoy it c: )



[link] Kiriban DemonicApricot Seriously, how many people can shade green skin???
[link] AF Mei Plays Dress Up This one shows how well she does clothes
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[link] Asian Warrior It's Noodle! She made her look rather snazzy |D
[link] OMNOMNOM GUM She looks so cute.
[link] Two Different Worlds I rather like this idea. It's a collab piece between her and a friend



[link] Chibi Pyro Very cute little animal x3
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[link] Charrie for Garciea Gureishia Cute too, lol It's a Vulpix, but also not. Really cute, nice design



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So, I just want to say thank you
Everyone on here has been really helpful with all bad things that have happened to me recently...
The majority of my irl friends have been pretty much useless, which disappoints me... I guess the only good thing that's happened is that I've learned who to trust and who I can go to with my problems. Sadly, it turned out to be total strangers :/

If you're wondering how I'm feeling...well...I'm actually doing pretty good... I've decide to stay away from both of them, because seeing them or thinking about them just hurts... I mean, I won't completely ignore them, but I'm not going to put any effort into a relationship (friendship or otherwise) with them.

Everyone but those two think they've betrayed me. My mom agrees with me fully. She thinks that I shouldn't have to deal with either of them or put myself in such a hurtful situation. She says I'll meet other people who won't hurt me and that I just have to get out more and stop staying all couped up inside. I can take her advise pretty close to heart because she knows both of them very well and she still thinks I should stay away from them. She doesn't think they're real friends if they're going to do that to me.

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These are some of the points I made that she was apparently thinking:

If it was so hard for her to not like him, why would she constantly put herself by him? She had no problem distancing herself from me.

If he hadn't been looking, he never would have started to like her. What I mean is that, if he wasn't looking for something "better" then he wouldn't have fallen for the first person to come his way.

They still lied and your friends shouldn't keep things from you, especially if it actually has something to do with you.

They only put themselves first and right now, that's still all they're thinking about. Brittney doesn't want to be hated and just keeps saying things in her own defense. Ricky doesn't say anything at all and just keeps to himself, he's not thinking about anybody, really.

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I talked to Ricky on the phone and told him everything I was feeling and what I had felt. All he did was yawn on his side of the phone; he didn't feel like talking. After we hung up, I went into the living room and cried my eyes out as my mom help me and comforted me. After all of that, I just went on the computer and talked to friends (even Ricky) and then, after a while, I went to sleep.

When I woke up, I didn't hurt anymore... Something must've clicked inside of me and I just...I just felt peaceful... I know I'll still hurt, but I'm doing a lot better than just feeling sorry for myself. I told him I have to distance myself so I can stop hurting myself. That I need to think of myself for a while so I can feel good. I know I'm being selfish, but I think I deserve to be. This is the one time that it's okay for me not to care about how the other people are feeling. This time I can just think of myself and make myself feel better instead of everyone else.

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Part of me feeling better about myself is changing how I act and look. I've been accomplishing a lot lately

I'm a lot more helpful than I was before (with family), I guess I 'm slightly less lazy, lol, and I'm trying to control the whole Bipolar Disorder thing I have. When I get mad I try and calm down and say something to not make whoever I may have mad feel bad not so bad.

If you read about what Bipolar Disorder ([link]) is you can understand it a little better, though my case isn't severe it still disrupts my social life. Although, it may seem like I can just turn it off whenever like anybody else, I really can't. Sometimes it take a lot to control myself... Sometimes I feel bad for no reason...

That's part of the reason why I don't like depressed people that really have nothing wrong with them; meaning their life isn't so bad and they don't have a disorder. They don't know what it's like to really have a problem that you can't do much about...I just have to keep trying and I'll do better...

Sometimes it can be helpful, "While the disorder affects people differently, individuals with bipolar disorder during the manic phase tend to be much more outgoing and daring than individuals without bipolar disorder." but it usually isn't... Depending on how severe of a case an individual has they can have a major depressive episode, a manic episode, a hypomanic episode and/or mixed affective episode.

Mine isn't too bad, but then, I don't know how bad it could be. I have a therapist; the one who diagnosed me, and all we really talk about is how I'm feeling (lol, no duh, therapy), we don't actually discuss the Bipolar Disorder. I know there is medication I can take for it, but none of us want me to do that...I don't want to have to unless it's the last resort and the only thing that can help me, but I doubt that will happen, so I'm good.

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As far as changing how I look, I guess it's kind of drastic, lol. Really, I'm just doing the things I've always wanted to do. Ricky either didn't want me to or had no opinion....Dear Lord, I relied on him for everything D:

Anyway, I think I'll tell you what I did ^-^

I cut off, like, 6 inches of hair after dying it a nice blue-ish like black. If you're wondering what kind of style it is, think Hinata from Naruto with a dramatic part to the left

I got the left side of my bottom lip pierced I've wanted to do that for the longest time, but just never thought about it. I didn't think it would look good either, so that's another reason why I didn't :<

I'm getting a tattoo on my back (near the middle) x3 I'm so effin excited I could dance, lol. I have my appointment at the end of the month This will be my first tattoo I chose something I drew...I mean, it looks kind of insignificant, but it has a ton of feeling behind it. It was just a random drawing I did during my English class and then finished at home. There were happy feelings, mad feelings and sad feelings thrown into it (it looks somewhat like a dagger)...I don't know when, but I'll also be getting a Japanese saying/proverb underneath it.

I'm having trouble picking between
秋茄子輪嫁に食わすな。　
and
継続和知からなり。

The first one means, "Don't let yourself get taken advantage of." and the second one means, "Don't give up." (those aren't what they say, but that's what they mean, lol) When I do decide to get the Japanese done I want to get it done vertically; the normal way, lol. I can probably just get them both next to each other, but I don't know if that would be too much. I think maybe I could just cover my lower back in Japanese sayings/proverbs...which doesn't seem like such a bad idea, lol. I'll look for more and put them next to each other, I think it'll look nice ^-^




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first journal [link]

This is what comes out of my mind/mouth when my whole Bi-Polar Disorder and Depression come in full swing.

The beginning is so angry and bitchy...the ending just becomes sad and depressing...

The bottom line is: I want everything back to the way it was...

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Anger and Sadness
Current mood: melancholy

Urgh, I just don't know anymore...

I'm tired of both of them. They both lied to me in their own way...

They're both weak.
They're both liars.

I'm tired of doing anything and everything for them. He toyed with me for months, lied to me and then ripped out my heart. She came to save the day, or so I thought, and instead stomped all over the pieces.

Soooo...I don't know what to really say. I don't know what to do, for that matter. I know what I should do and my parents agree: I shouldn't have anything to do with them anymore. My mom doubts Brittney's intentions and thinks she's really just doing/planning shit behind my back and I have to say, I don't put it past her. My dad says, "Fuck 'em, both. They don't deserve me." and I like that. lol

I've been too hard on myself for too long. When it all comes down to it, I want to put myself first. I don't want to have to continue to put their feelings and their existence before mine; it's been going on for far too long.

So, fuck him and fuck her. I'm not going to put myself through all this shit just because I still love him and because I'm supposed to protect her. They can get together for all I care. They're probably meant for each other. Neither of them can open up, they're both stupid and have no experience with doing anything for anybody else. (Of course I don't actually want them together. I'm just angry and annoyed and lost and pissed and I want to strangle them both D: )

She says people step all over her. Ha, for that to happen you actually have to do or say something.

He doesn't want to let anybody in or open up at all; it's too hard.

I get stepped on and just keep letting it happen. I never want to see anybody hurt and because of it, I get hurt. I just can't do anything anymore. I'm completely torn up on the inside and it gets harder to live and be happy every day. Then, they both decide to come out with this shit when I'm in such a delicate state...Yeah, great planning A-holes.


Brittney- I tried to fucking help you with your intense shyness. I tried to get close to you after drifting apart. I can't help it that you tuned me out and only spent time with Courtney.

Ricky- You foul thing you. I asked you every fucking day for 3-4 months if you were okay, if you still liked me or loved me and you would constantly say you were okay and that you did like me. Well, what the fuck was I supposed to do about you lying? I told you that you could tell me what was wrong and that I would help you, but you just couldn't let me in, could you? Yeah, I fucked up, I know that, but I constantly did things to make up for it. If you still had a fucking problem, couldn't you have said something? TALKING. It does fucking wonders.


And you say neither of you noticed. Well maybe if you two weren't so busy wallowing in your own self-pity and stopped fucking flirting with each other, you would've noticed someone right in front of you. I hope it hurts, because it's nowhere near what I'm dealing with.


You're just balls of self-torture and hate and it's disgusting to see. It's hard to look at the both of you because you won't do anything to help yourself. No one wants depression, but neither of you do anything to try and get out of it, you just whine and bitch and moan. It's hard, I know, oh GOD do I fucking know. I'm sorry you guys are weak. I'm sorry I fucked up the way I did. I'm sorry I wasn't always there for you (Brittney). I'm sorry I was there too much (Ricky). There seems to be nothing I can do to make either of you happy.



Sadly...I'd still like to be with the both of you.

Britt, you're my best friend, but you make it easy to hate you when you flirt with Ricky every chance you get. That's low. Just because we're not dating doesn't mean you should do that. I would never do that shit to you. I know when you "loved" Sam all I did was help you; I still liked him, too. All I ever wanted was to stay close to you and be the sisters we were. Nothing will be the same again. If I ever do get back with him or anybody else, I will always think, "Does she like him?" I will never trust with anybody I hold so dear to me ever again.

Ricky, you were my one and only. I had such high hopes even though we had bad times. I would cry randomly just because I was so scared of what might happen. I would cry over the horrible things that happened. I was always so alone, but then I had you, so it wasn't so bad... Now I have no one, I have nothing.... I know I have friends, but I don't have that one special person...
You know, I don't know what was true or what was a lie the whole time we were together... I know you love me...I know you care about me, but maybe you never wanted that future with me...Maybe you never were in love with me... But, then I think, "He was happy then and he really did mean all those things." and then I would smile...


I think what makes it hurt the most is that you're both sorry.... There are so many emotions flying around and I just don't know what to do... As you can tell (if you read all of this, that is), I went from being really pissed to depressed to sad to somewhat happy... Oh, the wonders of Bi-Polar Disorder and Depression!



"I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all."

-Alfred Lord Tennyson



"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."

-Dr. Seuss



"One year of love is better than a lifetime alone."

-Queen




Haha, how great are those quotes? I love them and I have to keep reading them...they somehow give me strength.

Message me if you want to talk about any of this. I don't think any conversations should be out in the open.


By the by, I'll bring you all some cake from my pity party



10:24am

Sorry, there's no cake left :c

Soooo...I'm still upset....
I still don't know what to do with myself Dx
I want to hate them, but I can't... I want to strangle them both, but that would be wrong...
I really feel like throwing up...

Heartache is horrible...It makes you hurt all over the place and feel so sick.

I don't really care for everyone's whining about how mean I'm being or whatever. 'cause...I kind of don't care...You all thought I was a bitch before, just wait until you see me completely unleashed.

It hurts...I'm not gonna lie...It hurts so much that I just wish it would all end.

I swear, he's so tired of me and I know there's nothing I can do, but still. Just...FUCK! I wasn't even given a chance. I'm sure he made up his mind a long time ago and when he just didn't feel like dealing with me anymore, he just left.

I just want to sleep the rest of the summer away and ignore everyone once I get back to school. I really don't want to talk to anybody once school starts. I'll be all alone and depressed and Ricky and Brittney will be talking and I'll just hurl on the fucking floor.

This piled on top of everything else just made me die a little inside....All this senseless shit that happened and can't be fixed.... Everything hurts and I just want to cry...I just want to cry my eyes out and go to sleep...I just want to be loved again...

If I were a drunk, my liver would gone.
If I smoked, my lungs would be gone.
But, I'm not any of those....I'm just a sad sad little teenager who wants to curl up next to the one person who said he loved her...
I want my hair to be petted...
I want hugs...
I want warmth and happiness...
I want to cuddle...
I just want it all back...

I'm sad and pathetic and can't seem to let go...
I don't care...
I would beg on my knees for him to take me back if that's what it took...
But he doesn't want me back...and there's nothing I can do...

11:10am

Here's what it feels like:

Imagine that there is a red string, yes red, looped around your heart.
Now, imagine that that string is suddenly tugged on. Great, now someone's got a hold of you...
Alright, so things go fine for quite a while; there are ups and downs and all arounds, but things work out.

Then, they tug on it and tug on it until they just rip it out.
Ouch.
This is when you find out that that nice little red string, is actually...
red piano wire.

Now, your heart's on pieces all over the floor.
You pick them up before they get stepped on anymore.
You try to put them back together...
But, try as you might, it just doesn't work; there are connected pieces here and there, but the rest just won't go back together... There are even some bleeding pieces.

Then...you just sit alone...
You laugh...
You cry...
You get angry...
You have nowhere to go...
And now you're alone...

These are all things I wrote way before any of this happened...
I ask that you please read them to get what my mental state had been near the end of that relationship.

It's All Wrong
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Please?
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What Does It Take?
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(Read the artist's comments on this one. I was sitting a block away from where he lived at the time...)

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I always knew I wasn't lovable...I mean, I knew that no one could truly love me. I've always felt that way and all that happened just confirmed it.

And the only thing anybody wants to tell me is how I fucked up. They only want to tell me the bad that I've done. As if I don't know what I did! I don't care what anybody has to say about what I did, I don't have to say shit to any of them, I already told him how I feel about everything.

People like to bitch about how mean I am, well they can seriously fuck off. When I did try and when I was nice, no one seemed to give a damn. I tried, but no one was even looking my way.

I've said my apologies and I've done all I can, there is nothing else I can do, and there's nothing that will make it better. All I can do right now is try to stay sane and happy. It doesn't help that he likes my friend or that he acts so intensely perverted now; with everyone, or that he still wants to be "friends." I get sick to my stomach every time I think of him with anybody else; I've almost actually thrown up a couple of times.

Like I told one of my friends, "
My ex-b/f whom I love with all my heart and who I gave myself to finally confessed to liking my best friend... I hate how nice she is, it makes her so easy to like. He would say so much shit about how cute she was and everyone would say how they thought they were dating....it's so apparent now it...

My chest burns...my heart is breaking...the pieces won't go back together..."

I'm not afraid of being petty, but that's because I know that that type of feeling will pass. Right now, I'm mad at my friend even though she hasn't done anything, but I'll get over it because she didn't do anything wrong.

I just feel so bad about myself and I want to take it out on the nearest person...Though, I'm trying not to.

Really, the only thing I don't like about everyone liking her is that, she's not always like that. I've seen her be bitchy and petty just like me, but that's because she's a fucking human, we all have our faults. That's how I treated my relationship; he was my everything and even when he got annoying I would just remember that everyone has their problems and that he/our relationship was far more important than anything.

And, hon (my bestie), if you're reading this; I'm not mad at you I'm mad at my imaginary you I know you would never do anything to hurt me...If you do like him, just tell me... I'll forgive you... You can't help who you like... I fell in love with a guy who hurt me in many ways, but I still love him and he fell in love with a bitchy person like me... Sometimes, I think he fell in love with the wrong person...but, if that's true...I'm glad he did...I had a taste of happiness and it was amazing...

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I want to think that one day I will find someone; whether it's him or someone else... I just really want it to be him. I pretty much have no intention of dating anybody else; boy or girl. I thought about it, like, I really thought about it and I realized something...I'll never find someone like him ever again, I'm not saying that I won't move on, but that there will never be another him. I have never opened up to someone like that before...my vulnerable side has always been my own, but I put it all on the line...and all he did was keep himself from me... I don't think he ever wanted to give himself to me fully... I don't think I was his one...but he was mine....

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Please Don't Leave Me

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Baby, please, please don't leave me

Pink

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"No, people usually don't put my feelings into consideration...
It's because I'm such a bitch. I pretty much hate myself because of that...I'm bi-polar and have depression...So, you know, it's really hard for me to function...Sometimes I'll feel bad for no reason...

I don't get what people expect me to do...I've basically shut everything off inside of me because of what happened to Jada...I'm basically ignoring everything...I hadn't really realized how bad I was doing until I had to go to the hospital for dehydration; I haven't been eating or drinking or sleeping for that matter.

It's just that...there are lot of things behind my shell, and no one ever cares to try and get past it...My friends don't even try...

I'm pretty much alone, so I try to cope by myself...anything I say or do isn't taken into account and half the time I feel invisible...I've been contemplating suicide since I was 5.... I hurt a lot and almost everyday for anything wrong that I've ever done...the hurt doesn't go away...

And I've been abandoned by the one person who said he would be there for me...My boyfriend who was supposed to accept me and love me even though I had my faults...I just wanted him to do what I did for him in that sense...

Well...I've become a better person since Jada passed...When we thought she was missing, things started to fall into place for me...and when we found out what really happened, I decided to man up...I'm not as mean as I was and I'm trying to do a lot more for my family... I was going to start doing a whole lot more for my friends; I started hanging out with people I hadn't seen in years, and I was gonna do a hell of a lot more for my boyfriend...I was trying to redeem myself...yet, no one seemed to care...they never have...

And, I really don't feel like trying anymore...but, I'm not going to really give up...I'm just going to end up shutting myself off from anyone who isn't family... My friends...well, I'm only going to be there a little bit...I'm just afraid of being abandoned again...Every time I open up, I get rejected. I'm just going to end up falling back into that slump I was in when I was younger...and I don't think I'll be able to get out of it this time..."

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I'm ready to throw up. This shit is just too fucking movie-like for me to handle. I'm just shaking and so cold...I think the stress has gotten to me. Don't be surprised if I end up in the hospital again...






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is holding a free raffle, you gets some smexy art if you win Just click the link ;D


I know all the words to that song

Now, I'm listening to The Ex - Billy Talent
Brains - Voltaire
See You Again (cover) - Breathe Carolina <---- Sooooooooooooooooooo much better than the original.
Plane Ticket Home - Billy Talent
Send The Pain Below - Chevelle
99 Red Balloons - Goldfinger <---- I know it's not the original, shut up. I have a lot of versions
When You're Evil - Voltaire
99 Red Balloons - AFI <---- meh, not that great, I like the drums in it.
Hallelujah - Paramore
BYOB - System Of A Down
Miracle! - Paramore
Soldier Side - System Of A Down




Important stuffs:

Firstly, 'cause I feel important right now: Happy Birthday to me!!!

I'm now 17 Geeze, it took forever D:

So, today I'm going to House of Kobe x3 (This one Japanese restraunt that I enjoy )
I'm taking two people for sure. I couldn't get a hold of anybody else or they weren't free :<

I hope to get some lovely gifties from people at some point I won't see some of my friends for a while, so I won't get some gifts for a few weeks or so :/ I know for sure I'm getting at least one gift on here

I didn't really pimp for art...don't really know why. I'd rather have someone do it out of the kindness of their heart and if they have spare time. I know a lot of the people I watch are very busy with many things. Besides, I have 4 more trades coming in after I finish mine So, yay for those.

A simple "happy birthday" will suffice, considering last year, like, none of my friends even did that. I just like being remembered

Anyway, after House of Kobe I think my friends and I (my mom too I think) are just gonna hang out for a bit and then I'm having dinner at Olive Garden with my family

After then everyone else (the people 21+) are going to a benefit for Jada at a club. I don't know if both of my parents are going, but my grandma will be staying home. So, I'll pretty much just do whatever when I'm home. Maybe start cleaning my room (I swear to you, it looks like a damn tornado hit it. My room is ultra messy for a girl...I sort of have a floor.) Start sketching my freaking half of trades >.< That's really what I should do.... I'll try that, yeah...lol Really, I'm just looking forward to sleep tonight I don't know why.

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Alright, the next important thing on my list. The lovely deviant nominated me to get a handmade glass heart from 's campaign here: [link] Please go to that link. It's one of the single most wonderful ideas I have ever heard. She had read about what happened to Jada and it touched her enough to reach out to a person she has never met and get them a gift.

They are both such wonderful people
I thank for nominating me and for for coming up with such a beautiful concept. Her campaign shows how there are people that don't even know you who care about you. I've never met either of them.

To me, it's like a late birthday gift and a token of compassion. When I first read her comment I smiled, then I went to the link and read what it was all about and just cried. It's hard to find such wonderful people in the world these days, it's nice to have something like this happen; to have some reassurance that there is still good left in the world.

What happened to Jada was a tragedy, but it brought the best out in a lot of people. Jada, in life and in death, brought many people together. That little girl brings so many smiles to many people's faces. There is one good thing about tragedy, it brings many people together.

I'm so happy about this little gift and I can't wait to get it. I should get it at the end of the month I'll hold it close to me everyday, I'll either wear it or keep it in my wallet; it's large enough.

I really hope to stay in contact with these two and maybe, one day, we could meet. It would be unlikely for me and , unless she came to America; she lives in South Africa It would be more likely for me and to meet. She lives in Germany and my friend is going there as an exchange student and I'm sure she'll continue to visit when she's older and who's to say I won't go with her one day?





Other stuffs that isn't really important:

Oh, and I've been switching things around on my page. I like the journal at the bottom, but because mine are so long it's kind of annoying, so I'd rather leave them at the top :/

If you read the list of songs I was listening to, don't they seem really random? lol, I like a lot of music that is so far apart in genre Yes, I know there was a lot, but I typed a lot and got sidetracked

I'm gonna make a Birthday playlist and then either take a shower and go to bed or just go to bed. I might even abandon the whole playlist idea and go to bed







Kiriban List:

14,444
14,567
14,888
15,000
15,555
15,678
16,000
16,666
16,789
17,000
17,777
17,890
18,000
18,888
18,901
19,000
19,012
19,999





ART TRADES
1. (when she has the time )

2. King Raymond and GINGA! I mean Ginger *cough*

3. Gwinn and Makio :] I have an idea

4. Psycho Theme: Sin Sketched


5. Viktor





Friends: *Alphabetical



Groups: *order joined